teardropps

i loved her first but put her second
tell her now and on the record
truthfully i reckon
if the spotlight never beckoned
we wouldn't be in this position


if the spotlight never beckoned
back when we were
and it was but it still is
too hard to recall
somedays i cant stand tall
i wanna give you a phone call
when the world gets too big to breathe in

on another heart we get dependent
no one will give what you can't get
shouldn't forget wen we first met
no one understood them then
the two young lovers in camden
now tear drops in my eyes
your name on my phone i breath in

shouldn't take what you know you'll break
but back when we where
and it was
remember when
and back then
now you're
too close
to call a friend
too far away
to ever love again
put my heart in the pen
painted prose for when
she listens to the story of my life
can't love the only woman i like
I'll have to love her in what i write
hair nose teeth ears
truth belief pain from fears
with past being another road
leads to a hurt but strength unfolds
and yes we could say
all humans have these things
but only when we bring
a certain something
makes every heart sing
and how do you define the thing?

Baby steps

Two pounds change
spent on chalk farm chicken
with varicose veins
the sky is dark blue
in the type of winter
you wade through
In my hand is a cold can
of mirinda, the poor mans
fanta.
The bus comes slightly ahead of me
so i sort of jog and quietly hide my fatigue
It's more of a rumble and my head rattles
on the window. The light blue bus going past
hampstead heath musics played from behind
my seat I'm writing about london clouds
then throw an evening standard away from me
the front cover was about the casualties of haiti.
Baby steps.

ny-lo-nyky-lay-la.

hows my girl down Korea way
I met her after my session
at the internet cafe
tell my parents new york is great
and I'm doing okay
that I've found a menial job
with semi-decent pay.
her little legs with a lot in them
are perfectly shaped
she bounces on me
it makes my day
while sneaking a lingering touch
other than that there's
not much else to say
it was an unspoken moment
on korea way, just off broadway.

good shit from the vault 08

Heartbreaker.

"when so many love you,
is it the same?"

if everyone loved you would it desensitise the feeling of love? and when you love someone, you'd be breaking others hearts, perhaps without knowing. the other thing is, would it hurt more or less if you were turned down?

Imagine that, being born a heartbreaker- it could only be a woman- you would have to make sure you didn't smile at people too much. Horrible.

If you were mean it'd be a gift
but only a curse for the good.

stuff to go by

Learn the ritual
or write the passage
go the old road
or see if you can manage
to be both truly tortured
and nurtured
surviving off
and learning from
the best and worst
of yourself
x

With great power...

... Comes great responsibility

Crosshairs.

The fairy lights sparkle

boy checks his breath

and thanks god he gargled

wrestle with the pen,

odds of her with him were one to ten

teenage angst makes no sense

especially when you're twenty

and not the first time

you've been with a pretty lady

she, got a body that's unfair

not quite sure if he got the chance

on how he'd handle that derriere

he knows dragons lore

but is unprepared for an answer

to the question she is asking "for

how long will you be doing

what you've been trying to do

and if it doesn't work

will you be willing

to try something new?"

it was like there was a dagger in his pocket

but was hesitant to use it

slipping in his palm he began to feel useless

what's good a weapon

when you're stumbling over a question?
did i forget to mention
his truth often left him
conscience hovers over head like the jetsons
so jet son not with this one

I would love to say you know how i do

but if you did you'd do it too

and from the looks of things

it's evident that it isn't true

true enough truth will make you

want to scuff

don't act too tough before you're called on your bluff

walk in walk out or

you'll be left with a bigger hole than your big mouth

a gaping soul

broken hearts

from the start

he gave her answer that could have torn the night apart

"forever and no

because this is all i can do

but if i get far enough you can come too"

her lovin' lookin was liken to reese witherspoon

it could been she was saying

you complete me too

gave me a big old kiss like

roll the dice is all we ever do

constantly learn from the lesson

each time the effect is lessened

put the pen to the hand

then pen to the page

carry on till the next ice age

so when my soul leave my body

put these words on my coffin

sean mahoney never stopped for nobody

or nothin'

but before that time comes

let the fairy lights shine

dates over won her over

lets make for lost time

and we'll come to mine

real rhymes from a iron mind

put your ear to my soul
and feel your heart shine.